Missing my Mama

Words cannot explain how much I am going to miss my mom.  I know her and I haven't always gotten along and been the best of friends, but she's still always been my mother, my comfort, my support (in more ways than one), my friend, a part of me.  I feel saddened every time I think about having to send her back on a plane to MN and her not being right there next to me, but it's time.  

It's time for both of us to grow and live.  She will always be near me, because I am a part of her.  It's true what they say about turning into your mom.  You grow up as a teenager saying, "oh that'll NEVER happen to me"  and then one day you wake up and you're 28 and you are more like you mother than you realize.  The only difference now is that those little things that make me so much like her I am okay with!

We still have many differences that make each of us unique, but I am starting to enjoy finding those little things that make me just like her.  She is a wonderful woman who has helped me out in life no matter what has come up and I may not have always appreciated it as much as I should have, but I do appreciate all that she has done for me.  And most importantly I love her more than she knows.

I am not a very emotional person and actually writing this post is a little more tear jerking than I usually am, but if there was one thing I could go back in time and change, it would be simply to find a way to show her how much she has meant to me over the years.  Cause even if at the time I was saying I would never be like her, all that matters now is that I am so very proud to call her my mama.

I love you!