Missing my Mama

Words cannot explain how much I am going to miss my mom.  I know her and I haven't always gotten along and been the best of friends, but she's still always been my mother, my comfort, my support (in more ways than one), my friend, a part of me.  I feel saddened every time I think about having to send her back on a plane to MN and her not being right there next to me, but it's time.  

It's time for both of us to grow and live.  She will always be near me, because I am a part of her.  It's true what they say about turning into your mom.  You grow up as a teenager saying, "oh that'll NEVER happen to me"  and then one day you wake up and you're 28 and you are more like you mother than you realize.  The only difference now is that those little things that make me so much like her I am okay with!

We still have many differences that make each of us unique, but I am starting to enjoy finding those little things that make me just like her.  She is a wonderful woman who has helped me out in life no matter what has come up and I may not have always appreciated it as much as I should have, but I do appreciate all that she has done for me.  And most importantly I love her more than she knows.

I am not a very emotional person and actually writing this post is a little more tear jerking than I usually am, but if there was one thing I could go back in time and change, it would be simply to find a way to show her how much she has meant to me over the years.  Cause even if at the time I was saying I would never be like her, all that matters now is that I am so very proud to call her my mama.

I love you!

We're Moving

To most this is not new news, but for those of you who do not follow me on Facebook, this may come as a shock to you (or maybe not)!  If you had asked me seven years ago what I would be doing this summer, the last thing I would have probably said was moving, but alas that is what I will be doing.....and I couldn't be more EXCITED over it!

Don't get me wrong, Minnesota is a great state with many opportunities, but after living here for as long as I have and feeling like I am getting nowhere in life, I wanna go home!  With the help of my wonderful boyfriend, Sebastian, on July 10, 2011 we will be leaving for Fort Mill, South Carolina and moving in together.

I have known Sebastian for 14 years and we have stayed friends all through those years.  We have been there for each other through tough times, great times, trying times and boring times :)  and we plan on spending many more years experiencing life together.  For the first time in seven years, I remember what it feels like to be alive!

So, the move is planned for July 10th and hopefully we will be able to make it to SC by the 12th.  Mom will be flying down with Dakota a few days later and will be staying to help me get settled a bit (and of course to see old friends)!

I will continue with school at Winthrop University (if I get accepted, of course - lol), but for a while I just plan on staying home and learning to be the best "house-girlfriend" I can be, as well as re-learning my way around and getting comfortable with life there (settle into a routine, if you will).

Each day a little more gets packed and ready to go!  I am literally counting down the days ;)  Before I know it I will be there, so until then I am soaking up as much time as I can with my mom and just trying to get all my ducks in a row :)

Watch out South Carolina, cause here I come!!!!

Dakota Update

Dakota had a doctor's appointment about a week ago to check on the progress of his hip.  Dakota and I had worked together to try and get more exercises done at home & even though the progress wasn't great, it's still progress.  And apparently it's enough, cause Dakota is having surgery on June 21st @ 8 AM to have the three pins and the plate removed.  The surgery is a same day procedure so we should be out that same night, but he may have to spend one night, depending on how he recovers.

There are 3 stages to Perthes.  Stage 1 is diagnosis and the initial surgery (been there, done that).  Usually in stage 1 the blood supply to the bone has already stopped and a lot of the bone is already dead.  Stage 2 is where your body absorbs the dead bone & stage 3 is where new bone will reform.  The doctor said that we are not quite fully into stage 2, but very close.

After surgery Dakota will have to use his walker for about six weeks (he is NOT happy over that), which just about ruins summer for him (poor kid).  Luckily, we have a lot of changes that are occurring over the course of the next few months (see "We're Moving" post) so he should stay busy helping me out around the house.

Anyway, that's all the update I have at this time.  Dakota has to go in to see his regular doctor for a pre-op appointment to make sure he is healthy enough for surgery & then we are clear to go!  Please keep him in your thoughts & prayers!  Thanks :)