As most of you know already, I have made the choice to move back to Minnesota. This was not an easy choice, but one that I feel is best for me and Dakota. There are many, many reasons why I made this choice, but only two that I took into great consideration.....Dakota is not happy here!
Dakota misses his Gigi & Grandpa very much & has many friends in MN that he will be able to play in the neighborhood with. What I didn't realize is just how many friendships both him and I had made while we where there. I also miss my mom & dad. If going back to MN is what is going to make Dakota happy then I am more than willing to put my dreams aside for the time being.
Another important reason I am leaving is because I have yet to find a job here. I have applied for many openings and gotten a decent amount of interviews as well, but alas nothing seemed to stick. I have already aquired a job in MN when I get back, so already things there are looking up :)
We have been here now for five months and have been through so much! I have lost a couple friends along the way. One loss over a someone I thought had my best interests in mind, but found that she was just another one of those back stabbing women who likes nothing more than to stick her nose in other people's drama (even though she has plenty of her own drama under the roof of her own home & with her own family) & another over an issue that wasn't handled correctly or considerately by her & was more or less her deciding not to have me as a friend anymore without my knowledge (I found out later on), but am grateful for the losses because I have learned that I don't need the extra drama or the stress of being a certain kind of friend to one friend & a different kind of friend to another based on their needs. I am who I am, deal with it! More importantly I have made a ton of new friends in the process, which I am also grateful for. I have learned/realized (you will hear that word being used a lot in this post) many things along my journey here and have grown so much as a person.
I am going back to MN with a new attitude. When I moved to MN the first time back in 2004 I didn't want to leave what I had known all my life in NC. I got there and I hated it, but what I realize now as I prepare to go back, is that I didn't mind it so much after all. Yes the weather gets frightfully cold at times & yes the beach isn't 3 hours away, but it too has it's good qualities.
I am young enough that later on in life I can live my dream. And what I realized is that living in Charlotte is not my dream. I don't miss Charlotte! What I missed was the beach & I will continue to miss it while living in MN, but I can always go back and visit until one day I am able to live there! :)
I am grateful that God granted me the opportunity to come back to NC and revisit some old places and see many old friends, but I am also grateful to God that he has made me realize that this is not the path I am meant to be on right now.
I made a choice to take a chance on something which brought me down here & I now have made a choice to go back & I am okay with my decision!
